I find myself slipping into a deep hole. Funk. Funk. Funk. Get me out of this funk.
Another shoulder injection on Thursday=no practices/weight training for a week. 
Im loosing my place in many of my relationships now. Everywhere it seems like I have to be careful because I practically can trust no one. I used to have some backbone friends...if that makes any sense. Anyways, they are gone now. Yeah sure, we are still friends but its not the same. One of my guy friends, who I pretty much hated for a good part of this last school year, have become friends again. Not because I forgive him, but because I just need him to listen. All my friends, now that I think of it, are spoiled brats who cannot connect with me in anyway. What the hell. I dont know what I am saying.
My mom needs help. I dont know how to get her help.
I need help. I dont know how to do that, either. What do I do, just go to my dad or mom and be like, i need a shrink. I dont even know if that is what I need. sdkfja;sdfk
Ive lost my passion in basketball. Its probably cause im burned out. Daily practices for years at a time will do that to you. Im not even a sophmore yet and I feel like I should be moving on. It will never happen, though. I think I just need a boost of confidence. That boost needs to come fast because AAU is starting oh so very soon. I should just go ahead and say goodbye to my weekend social life and races.
I dont even go to volleyball conditioning anymore. Im such a bad person.
Im tired of my mom and dad whoreing around to get some kind of revenge on each other. It so immature and the divorce is days before it is final.... why cant they just stop the games already.
Its been over a year now and I want this be over. I take that back. I want this nightmare to be over. I just want it to be the way it was. The sad part is I can hardly remember what it was like to be a family. | 
